The usual

Horrible gingivitis has turned into a terrible cold. Imagine how one get a cold & sore throat during a course of antibiotics. Ironic isn't it? Lucky enough the sore throat lasted for 1 full day and night. Right now, I'm feeling that my nose is all stuffed up and my sinus is closing (still better than sore throat!)

The weekend is pretty much the same as any weekend. Got to relaxed a bit on both nights while i get off a bit earlier than usual. It worries me a little cos Pat seems to be cutting off my hours bit by bit. Anyhow, it's reality and nothing much i could do about it.

Robert texted last night asking how i was since he came back only on sun night. I don't missed him but I did think bout him almost everyday. I got a little jealous when he said things were sweeeet in Tokyo.

Went to Muay thai and combat training yesterday and today. I wanna look smashing this summer. I managed to lasted for an whole hr without gasing out - awesome. I wanna be fitter and absolutely toned like those instructors or girls around me basically. I talked about it for years that i wanna look absolutely smashing but it never got to where i wanted to be. Am half way through, this is it.

Alrite, enough for the day. One moment of weakness doesn't mean anything.

Wedding Day

New day today, as i was sitting at home yesterday, getting into the routine self-pity ritual. I had a small epiphany. At that particular moment, everything seems alrite.


Yes life is going a bit off track yet there's still time.


Yes, i'm getting older yet not too old that i can't enjoy life.


Yes i still haven't finish my bloody thesis yet there will be time, i just need to hang in there and stop being so repulse by it.


Yes i need operation on my tooth yet it's not like i have cancer so i should stop complaining about the pain.


I've taken on a very different path since I dun know when; from the almighty Jo to self-pitying Jo who can't get anything done. My Uni schoolmate once told me that she thought I"m superwoman, because i'm capable of juggling between full time working and full time studying. Anyhow, i want to bring almighty JO back in the scene!!


Elaine's wedding on the menu tonight...

Gingivitis

Gingivitis is THE biggest nightmare in my entire life. The pain of the gum is killing me slowly, it puts me off exercise, work, and even as simple as watching tv. As much as i hate antibiotics, it's the highway drug to get rid of the pain. I"m just hoping that it won't come back immediately right after the meds wear off.


I ain't too nervous bout having to be hospitalized for the operation, my only concern is that i'll have to wait for a long period of time before i get treated. I have very little patience, esp when i'm working so hard to built my health back to the level it used to be.


I've read from "alice in wonderland with cigarette" blog - it's not how one envision life would be if you go to bed asking urself if this is it


It reminded me of how i'd ask myself everyday before i fell asleep if that's a day already and what have i done today. This is so NOT how i want to live life, i had so much energy that could be put to better use.


I ain't miserable with gingivitis, i just can't put my head into the information that's needed to finish the bloody thesis. I'm not liking this, not at all. I once envisioned my life to be full of challenges, I felt empowered by solving problems that gets into my way. Wondering what would've happen if i've done this instead of that is not my way. I strangely believed that the road that i've chosen is for a reason, even most of the time, i managed to take the long way instead of the short cut, i'm paying my time to learn (probably a little too much time).


I've almost forgotten about this, i deleted Robert's number today. One side of me tells me that i want to know the reason for him looking for an affair (not sure if it's even an affair), but a bigger part of me was just waiting for something to happen. I find it hard to explain, but it's right thing that i did today - whatever happen happens, let's not think too far ahead.


Getting myself together and stopping all distraction should be the first priority, but i need to know how to get there. fark. I don't need luck, i need my ass kicked.

New beginning

I tried to keep track of what I did, who i met almost everyday couple of years ago. Life didn't go as the way i expected it to be, so i stopped blogging altogether. Can't say that life changed now, but it's def. not the same as it used to be.

I doubt anyone could found this site and read what i had to say but i wanna keep track of my trivial life again, this time for good.

Exercise

I start out doing BodyCombat ever since i joined the gym 3 years ago. Haven't been able to stick to having regular exercise until a year ago (2009 easter - you know sometimes it's the comfort of paying gym membership that gives u the illusion of having done *some* sort of exercise). Seeing myself in bikini with massive amount of love handle sitting comfortably on the hips and those thunder thighs hit me hard in the head that i need to do something about it. Lucky enough, i spent the whole year developing this exercise habit, I realised that the adrenaline from a good 45 mins - 1 hour exercise a day has helped to keep me physically and mentally sane. So much has happened, I'm just glad i didn't bail out on it.

Just did my BC43 today, awesome tracks and i really busted my ass off for every moves, absolutely love it!! But, think i'm gonna skip the muay thai training tonite, the jaw really bugs me.

Miscellaneous

My painful right jaw is really starting to worries me, while the entire right side of my face is in pain for the last two nights during my sleep. I'm praying so hard that it's not the infectious root canal thingy, but i can feel the swollen gums already...fark**!

Note to self: need to book emergency appointment with dentist asap.

Need to go for a drink at Ludo's farewell in probably an hour. I never really thought that i could even talk to him for longer than 15 mins (1. I'm socially awkward when it comes to strangers, 2. Can't really understand his english with heavy french accent sometimes), nevertheless, i kinda stepped out of my comfort zone ( or maybe just by chance), he's one funny dude, loads of jokes and probably one of the few *non-annoying* french i've come across. Awesome!

Food

Been in love with recipes and cooking in the last 6 months. If i'll ever classified myself, i'm those who die for instant gratifications. Maybe I'm growing old now, i messed up my body quite badly from all those years of late nights and the crappy diets, now my body is paying for it. Bought a new cereal from CitySuper the other day "Kashi - GO LEAN Crunch" I really like it, it tastes like crushed granola bars. I need to mix it with some muselis and stuff cos it's actually quite sweet (it says naturally sweetened, dunno how healthy is that)

StudiesNo progress with studies today, still really not in the mood. Let's hope i'll do better tmr.